Honestly, my life feels so stagnant and dull right now. It’s the same routine over and over, and I really just cannot stand monotony. No big projects, no big events, just day after day of overly peaceful, mere existence to the point where it almost hurts. Seriously, not doing anything hurts. But not having anything major on my hands does have one single advantage-it brings out the little things I otherwise wouldn’t have noticed if I’d been busy. Here are some unretouched, raw photos I took of my sister today and raw, fairly intimate conversations I’ve had over the past week.
(while ice skating together last Wednesday)
Me, carefully tiptoeing and clutching onto the railing for dear life: Aren’t you scared that you might fall over?
Sister, laughing, whizzing past: Well of course I might fall over! But then how are you gonna do anything?
My mother, on me:
“She’s a free spirit.”
(Quick shout out to my mum: Mum I know you read my blog, my ‘I’m a coward’ post was on your phone yesterday)
A teenage dream’s so hard to beat
Every time she walks down the street
Another girl in the neighbourhood
Wish she was mine, she looks so good
-Teenage Kicks by The Undertones-
This song is my ringtone right now. Makes me wanna just drop everything and dance and not pick up the phone.
Dad: I can’t believe you might be married in only ten years’ time! Time flies.
Me: I’m never getting married.
The best thing about this outfit on my sister is the plaid. I love plaid. Whenever I see someone walking down the street wearing plaid, it’s like, damn we would be so good together we would be soulmates.
Me, to my crush: So when are we gonna meet up again?
Crush: Um, I dunno. (and then proceeds to not reply for days)
Best friend: But I think YOU need to stop pretending too. It shows in your facial expressions and the way you talk. Stop trying to act all emo and tough.
Me: I guess it’s my self defense mechanism. I hate feeling vulnerable. I try to put up a strong front.
Me: Did you know that I have dimples, when I laugh?
S.O.: Did you know that I have dimples?
Me, to myself: Stop worrying. Get up and do something.